In life I have times when everything just cruises along. I’m in the flow, just floating down the river of life and enjoying the journey. I meet the people I need to meet, am always in the right place at the right time and all action I take result in something desirable.
Then it happens! As the saying goes “the other shoe falls”. Someone or something comes into my life and damns the river, stops the flow or just sinks the boat right there from under me.
When I first started searching for my Truth I spent a lot of time going to seminars, doing programs and learning from the masters. I applied much of what I had learnt and experienced a greater awareness along the way, however there was one question that kept bugging me….
Why is it, when Life seems to be going along nicely Sh&t Happens to stop it?
Now over the years I have come up with many answers as to why this particular phenomenon happens. However not long after the celebration for finding the answer had finished, I would come across something that would literally blow it out of the water and I would be back to square one!
At one stage I was so frustrated with it that when I was at a particular happiness workshop I got over my phobia of looking like a complete goose in front of 500 people and asked the facilitator the following question:
“You have mentioned throughout the day, that in life you will meet challenges, and some of those challenges are really opportunities for you to grow and learn by pushing through, and others are blocks to stop you and point you in a different direction. So my question is, how do I know the difference?”
There was a pause and everybody waited expectantly (maybe I was not the only goose there) and then the answer came, “You just know!”. WTF!!! What the heck does that mean. However this single answer gave me the determination to find out for once and for all, what I was supposed to know, and didn’t – sigh.
Initially I came up with analysing techniques to determine the difference and spent so much time doing them that it didn’t matter in the end as nothing got done. Then I discovered Intuition, the wholly grail of knowing, only to find that it’s not really any help when you keep questioning whether what you are getting is either coming from the Ego or Higher Self. So in sheer frustration I went back to my original theory that in life Sh&t Happens for no reason, so get over it.
Yep with all that work done on myself, all those programs, all that experience I had done a full circle and was now back at the start, Sh&t Just Happens!
Now this could be the end to the story except for one little thing, I DID know that everything in life happens for a reason and that includes Sh&t! So unless this is just one big cosmic joke I must have missed something, and that something was yet to come into my awareness for whatever reason. So I gave up needing to have the answer and kept riding the river when it was flowing and having a rest when it didn’t.
I made decisions on what available information I had, either intuitive or physical, and took the next obvious action, regardless of whether I thought it was an opportunity, block or just Sh&t Happening.
Then an odd thing happened. I came to the realisation that life was flowing most of the time. The other shoe was not falling and while challenges still existed they were never an issue, as I would just take whatever obvious action was required.
Of course this led me to the question of what had changed, how had I discovered the elusive “Knowing” without really trying. Then it stuck me.
I had stopped labeling these life experiences, and just treated them as an experience. I was not trying to judge them and was just accepting that they were here to be experienced or not (which if you think about it is still an experience).
This also led me to another realization;
Life Is Always Flowing, unless I label/judge it differently. I am always in alignment with the Universal Bus Driver because I initially chose this bus. There really are no lessons to be learned, like the ego would love us to believe, just experiences to be had, and an ongoing growing awareness that I do actually KNOW, by not needing to know and just accepting and appreciating life as it arrives.
It’s an interesting experience which I highly recommend you give a try some time, you just might be as surprised as I was.
Have you ever wondered what it would be like to be a kid again?
Where every day brings a new adventure, and new experience to be had. NO, well I have and over the years have tried it a few times only to be dragged back into the same routine doing the same things because it was just to damn hard to do things differently.
Lets face it I like my comfort zones, they are safe and when set up don’t require a lot of time and effort to maintain. Yes they don’t provide the true happiness of soul experiences, but they do provide the safety and security my ego needs, without much disturbance to my daily life.
However, yep there is that however again, what I have come to discover is that the times I breakout of the latest comfort zones I have created, are the times I have the greatest insights and direct experiences into what I consider is my True Self and life path, yep go figure!For anyone who has been following our experience here at Intuitive Travelling you will know that we are endeavoring to live a life that reflects what we feel is our True Nature and Purpose. In doing so, this has led us to many new insights, experiences and a closer connection to the universal bus driver. For both of us travelling is a way to see and experience new things as well as let a power greater than us direct the show, so we can just turn up on the day and really engage with life.The interesting thing I have found is that no matter where I am or what I do, I am always tending to either gravitate back to an old comfort zone, or get busy trying to create a new one. Now you might say that because we travel around a lot having different experiences, living a Soul Life would be easy and that’s what I expected, forgetting of course that wherever I go so does my ever loving ego trying to keep me safe and sound. So it has been my experience that if I don’t intentionally set to do things differently I find myself in a brand new comfort zone with little desire to move on and take the action the ever persistant bus driver is nudging me to take.You see I love new experiences. Having a direct experience of doing something new is exciting and allows me to really be in touch with life. It also frees me from expectations and judgments that so limit me, and I presume most people, from living and enjoying a life of freedom. My issue is all the effort it takes to do something new. It is so much easier to stick with what I know rather than go for something new. It is really a case for me of “The pain of staying the same has to be Bigger than the perceived pain of change” for me to move, and this is even when I know that by moving I get to experience the real me, my True essence so to speak.With that said I have been inspired to create myself a challenge for 2012. For me there is nothing like a good challenge and this one has been brewing for sometime, it just took till now to really know what it was and why on earth I would want to do it!So here is the challenge:To have a one (or more) new unique experience(s) every day of 2012.Now just to clarify for those who are interested, an Experience is anything that requires me to do (or be) something, and New means (for it to count) that I have not already done it in 2012, and the further out of whatever comfort zone I have created the better.Easy you may say, what’s the big deal, well have a think about it! What new things have you done over the past day, week, year or 10 years even.? At the end will you have had a lifetime of experiences or one year experienced over and again for a lifetime? If you think it will be easy then give it a go, if you think it will be hard then give it a go, really what have you got to lose, and if you think why bother then only you can answer that, for me I feel it will be challenging and hopefully fun.Anyway that’s it. I will post my progress on our facebook page here, and when the page is built on the website.If you do decide to take up the challenge and want to share what you have been up to, feel free to add your comments to the facebook page or website.I wish all of you a great New Years Eve and an exciting and new 2012, I know ours will be.Travel WellGavin.
who the heck is in charge of my life?
It really is a question that should be put to every kid, in every school. A question that if they ponder, will lead them to question what path do I actually want to take
, or even, do I have a choice?
Well if you are like me, when I asked the question, you came up with the obvious answer. I have a choice and I am in control. I take total responsibility for my life and the choices I make. Then I went on to say, I am a grown up, I am not playing the victim to life, I know that I create, the good, the bad and the ugly, and I’m working on improving it.
I have done the work, the workshops, the programs. I have so much invested in this way of thinking that I was in charge, and I am not going to give it up easily!
Come on you have had to wonder, it must have crossed you mind at some stage,
Could I accept the possibility, yes just the possibility, that I might not be in control, that I might not actually be driving this bus called my life, and if I answered yes then that begs the question of WHO IS Driving this frigging Bus?
The EASY answer is, god, soul, a higher power, you know the sayings, get out of your head into you heart, love is the greater power, go for god and all that. But for me that was too easy, and I needed to go further, be it right or wrong, even if there is such a thing, I decided to try and explain the something that has happened in my life that as yet seems to be unexplainable!
You see over the years that I have been experimenting with my life and having many direct and different experiences, and what I have found is that the moment I let go of control of a situation it resolves itself
One of the best examples of this in my life was when I had severe depression. For 5 years, virtually every morning I would wake up trying to decide if it was worth going through another day. Some days I would say yes, and on others I would decide no, which led to less than desirable results of stays in various hospitals and for lack of a better term NUT houses.
Then one day I woke up and realised I had a choice. I could go on resisting this evil monster and try yet another type of medication, therapy, self help tape etc, and have some results, then only to have this monster return, or I could just accept that every morning I was going to wake up, feel like shit then appreciate the little things I could still do. So I chose the latter!It was my first real experience in letting go.
My feeling at the time was that I had just condemned myself to a life of misery and sickness. I kept asking, had I just given up except in a different way? For the next 3 months I would wake feel like shit, and then just do what ever I could, appreciate it and deal with life as it was presented. Then one morning I woke up and didn’t feel as bad, and over the next week the black cloud that had followed me for 5 years gradually broke up. I was amazed and relieved. I had done nothing but let go of driving and trying to make things better. I had just accepted and appreciated life as it was presented, and lived it the best I could for the condition I was in.
Looking back now, it was at that time I decided that I didn’t drive the bus. Now that is not to say that in the time to come I didn’t cry shotgun and jump in the drivers seat. It is to say however, it has been my experience that when I do, life on the bus ride seems to strike a lot of unmade and bumpy roads.
So the obvious question is:Who, or what is driving when I don’t?
Well at this point in time I can’t answer that. The only answer I can give is, I don’t,
and as I keep letting go, I seem to be finding new roads and highways I didn’t even know existed, having experiences I could not even start to imagine and finding a true joy in life.
Now I’m not saying this is the life for everybody, I’m only relating what I have experienced to now and expressing that in the insights I have gained. However what I do know, and can tell you, is that it is only through a direct experience of living it, do you ever know what it is like.If you want to give it a go, this is what works for me:
- First, accept that you don’t drive the bus and that the life you are living at the moment is the exact life you are meant to be living, then breathe!!!
- Second, live life as it is presented to you. Accept and then appreciate all situations, let go of all thoughts and feelings about them, then from that place take the next obvious step presented, and I assure you it is presented, you just have to be aware of it.
- Third, know that whatever happens the universe is supporting you on your journey, and your choice is only how you would like to experience it.
With that said I will leave you with a song that’s been playing in my head while writing this and that is, “Hail to the bus driver, bus driver, bus driver, Hail to the bus driver, bus driver ……………………………………………..”
However, yes you knew their was going to be a however, as with every journey of self discovery, in my experience you have to keep asking questions, until there are no more to be asked. So the next question was: